Over the past year or so i've gone from an aggressive individual to an overbearing egocentric.
I'm not proud of doing so and that's why i'm posting this, to explain why.
Now i'm not one of those snotty types that roam the boards thinking they are a the best at everything but at times I certainly tend to point in that direction.
I've gone through a lot in my life and in a few months I will encounter something which may cause the loss of my life, that being a large operation, the third in fact.
Because of this, as of late i've turned into an overprotective and perhaps offensive individual, something that has to stop now.
The reason it has to stop? Well mainly because it's tearing my online life apart.
Not only I have a lost a fellow partner and favoured online friend because of this, but I now have to suffer with the fact that he's gone for good and that my current projects cannot be continued.
Although I can't do nothing about that now (Believe me, i've tried) I certainly can do something about my attitude, which will hopefully help things in the long run.
Now I myself apologise to all who I may have insulted in the past, or as of late.
I'm sorry but you have to understand what i'm going through and why at times I hurt people. (I have no intention, believe me)
I'm trying to change I really am, but it's so hard at this current time as i'm given very little support from friends or family.
Now I ask all whom i've hurt to not only forgive me for my behaviour but to also support me through these times as I feel I cannot cope.
I promise all of this community that I will change but it will take time, just trust and support me, that's all I ask.
I had brain surgery when I was 7. It was pretty easy, I didn't know that I could die, no one told me haha! I was in the hospital for 3 months and after the surgery I had no control over the left side of my body, then they pumped me up with steroids so I was hungry all the time. Pretty soon I got fat from eating cheeseburgers and chocolate milk constantly. So its pretty easy except for the catheter (PENIS TUBE HURTS LIKE A BITCH!), IV's, and needles. In fact that’s where I got my phobia of needles. When that dumb Pilipino nurse stabbed my goddamn arm 20 times trying to find the vein.
anyway you'll be fine.
Steve Zissou: Anne-Marie, do all the interns get Glocks?
well, realizing you gotta change is a step in itself (i've never been insulted by you so this is generally speaking). You just have to have determination and you'll succeed. Don't worry.
This is just out of curiosity, but may i ask what surgery it is ? is sounds horribly grim (needless to say you should only do so if you don't feel uncomfortable with it)
i havent noticed any changes in you Jon, ive spoke to you loads of times on messenger and your still Jon as far as im aware. good luck with everything mate
Good luck with the op, you're one of the original veterans, one of the dudes who tells it like it is, and sadly we're lacking in that department lately.
Anyways dude, good luck, I know how it feels to have a life threatening operation and I hope you come out healthly like I did. And if you do, I'll have a drink in your honour.
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(needless to say you should only do so if you don't feel uncomfortable with it)
